Lee v Food

mcdogs — Mon, 27 Sep 2010 09:53:51 +0000

I warn you now that today has not been my proudest day and I am a total plonker. Last night I watched this stupid television show called Man v Food. Now if you have not see this programme it is basically about a bloke going around America trying to eat the biggest things he can find including ridiculous sized burgers and sandwiches containing 4lb of Pork. I said to Mazza at the time I know I had a problem when the first thought it my mind was “mmmm I could just eat one of them”.

Anyway before I went to bed I decided to do a Tesco shop online and it started off well with large volumes of water and not much else. I then made the fatal mistake of taking a look at the offers, went a bit crazy and next thing I know I had lost the argument with myself in my head and convinced myself it would be ok to cheat just for one day and confirmed an order containing so much crap you would not believe.

Still feeling down this morning when the delivery arrived I then managed to warp reality and for some illogical reason decided the best thing I could do was eat all the crap in one day and get back on the diet tomorrow …………….. and I did. I have spent most of today eating the type of junk I vowed never touch again, cakes, crisps, biscuits and even a nice dinner with steak. The trouble is after so long on the diet all it did was make me ill and even more depressed.

I really am so very stupid; the type of stuff I eat today is not only against my diet but could seriously damage my health now I am diabetic. Why is it that even though I know this stuff could kill me I can still convince myself its ok, I really do have a serious problem, it’s like a bloody addiction and very very scary when I cant seem to control myself.

I have been feeling pretty down lately and have mad mood swings, I guess in some ways I am depressed but not sure I can handle that on top of everything else right now. I spend so much time telling people I am ok and putting on a front I actually start believing it myself, the trouble is when I am on my own in the early hours of the morning and start to think when I have nothing else to occupy my time its when I come back down to earth with a bump.

I really am sorry for the crappy posts, I sound like a whinging git and I guess I am!

For Michelle

mcdogs — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 12:36:47 +0000

I got told off last night by Michelle Copp for not updating my blog often enough and I know she is right but I am just that bloody boring I have nothing exciting to tell you. Michelle apparently wants me to be naughty as she is a very bad girl and a bit of a babe to be honest, have you seen her new profile pic of her in that purple dress? She really is a hotty even though I know she does not believe it 99% of the time. This kinda brings me on to my next point about you women, why the hell do you all want to be skinny? Just stop it ok because none of us will ever look like those air brushed waifs in the magazines and I would choose a real woman with real curves any day of the week.

I have being told the same applies to us blokes but does it? I have not really set myself a target weight but the nurse at the surgery reckons I should be about 12 stone for me height. I told her I thought that was too skinny for me and I was thinking more 15/16 stone as my dream lady (not mentioning any names here) also likes a bit of meat on the bone so ladies tell me, what floats your boat? Are you a fan of a toned six pack or are you happier with a small beer keg to keep you warm during the winter?

I am still sticking to my diet and need to arrange another weigh in as soon as my surgery is back online, would you believe they have not being able to book appointments for two weeks because they are having a new computer system installed? Surely it can’t be that hard to use pen and paper. I also need to get my ass into gear and get some more bloods taken and an eye test sorted but I am not looking forward to that at all.

Anyway that’s about it for now, I was going to have a nice roast mutton dinner today and invited the Pope over to join me but I had a letter back from the Vatican saying sorry but he prefers his meat a lot younger and well done ………….. go figure!

Just say NO

mcdogs — Wed, 08 Sep 2010 14:57:36 +0000

Well I had my first diabetic review yesterday and it all seemed to go ok, my blood levels are only just above normal but I need to get the weight off and lower my Cholesterol. My Cholesterol level was 6 which apparently is pretty average but because I am diabetic I need to get it down to about 4. The nurse ran through a lot of the potential risks of diabetes which is kinda scary as I guess I have not been taking it too seriously. I now have a small mountain of leaflets to read and need to have some more blood tests done. The only thing I don’t like is I need to go for regular eye tests, I have avoided the opticians for years as both my brother and sister are going blind and to be honest I just did not want to know if I have the same condition (what’s the point if there is no cure).

At the end of the consultation I had a weigh in and I have somehow managed to lose just under 12lb in two weeks. I know this is an ok loss but for some reason I always want more and end up feeling disappointed; is anyone else like this? I think even if I lost two stone in two weeks I will still end up thinking “it should have been three”. I know not too many people know about this blog but I would just like to thanks everyone for the support I get on Facebook, I truly have some amazing friends and one day when I am slimmer and more mobile I intend to meet a lot more of you in person.

My bucket list seems to be growing by the day so if I ever do get all this lard off I am going to be extremely busy and totally knackered, in the space of a few weeks I have agreed to a parachute jump, a marathon and now mountain climbing with a friend in the States lol (I really need to learn how to say no).

I hope by this time next month I will reach my first target of 30 stone, I know this is still a crazy amount of weight and am embarrassed to even put it on here but two years ago I was tipping the scales at 40 stone so I guess a 25% reduction is a good start. I was chatting to a really good friend this morning and I saying one thing I am really looking forward to is being able to dress how I want, the clothes I wear now are tidy and functional but they were purchased because they fit not because I really like them.

Once another ten stone is off you will see a totally new me with a very different look and a very gorgeous lady has volunteered to “Gok Me”, sadly I know that is nowhere near as pervy as it sounds but maybe then I won’t be embarrassed to be seen out with her.

I’m feeling fruity

mcdogs — Tue, 31 Aug 2010 19:29:35 +0000

You will have noticed I have not updated for a few days but have no feat I have not given up already. Basically I am finding it really hard to do CD and get used to the Metformin at the same time. This week I started on two Metformin a day and they have really wiped out, they make me sick and give me a bad stomach which would be ok if I had something in my stomach but because I am on CD I have just ended up in so much pain its crazy. I have being a bit naughty though and ordered a load of fruit so at least I have something in my stomach and hopefully won’t do too much damage and I am feeling better already. Anyway Whinge over ……………… for today anyway and I promise to return tomorrow with something a lot more interesting!

My new dealer

mcdogs — Thu, 26 Aug 2010 22:14:04 +0000

Ooops less then a week back into my new blog and already missed a day but when you spend all day writing the last thing you want to do jot down a load of crap that will bore you all. Anyway today has been a bit of a mixed day, had a visit from my health trainer and he’s got me up and exercising (you may have felt some small tremors if you live locally). He has taught me some new exercises to use with my weights and reckons I will have arms like Arnie in no time; I was going to tell him my right arm is already half way there but after I caught him checking out my ample backside I was worried he might take it the wrong way ……………..or should that be the right way if that’s how he likes it? Anyway next week we are apparently going walking no matter what the weather is weather is doing, can’t say I am looking forward to that at all!

Thanks to Teressa I have managed to sort myself out with a new CD counsellor today and she sounds so much better then my old one I just need to get all new forms signed by my doctor so fingers crossed he won’t object. It has been a while since I have seen a counsellor but I kept in touch with her via email so not sure why she has decided to ignore me, her loss I guess. The counsellor has given me a choice, I can either go and see her or a bloke that does it with her can deliver my stuff which is ideal and he only lives five minutes down the road.

Had a real close call tonight and nearly ordered a load of junk from the local take away, not sure why but I just had this really bad mood swing and was very down. These diabetic meds really don’t help at all as they are making me really run down, just glad the side effects should be gone in a couple of weeks. I really need to get my head sorted though because now I know I cant have certain foods it just makes me think about them even more, I have these silly arguments with myself in my head where I hear myself saying “you should have it just once because you might not be able to have it again”; am I the only one that has the conflicting voices ???

Anyway that’s about it for now, hope I did not bore you too much lol

P.S How much are shakes and bars these days?

Brendan is a legend

mcdogs — Tue, 24 Aug 2010 22:15:46 +0000

Hmmmm day four of the new blog and I have finally realised something ……………………. I really need to get a life lol How the hell am I supposed to write something original every day when all I do is sit on the sofa and watch TV. Over the past two days I have watched thirty episodes of Coach Trip on catch up TV which is not really a good use of my time. Anyway this is just a short one today (oooer matron) as I feel like crap and don’t want to sound like a whinging git

My idea of exercise is a good brisk sit

mcdogs — Mon, 23 Aug 2010 22:32:33 +0000

Day three in the big blubber household and not a lot to report really, still sticking to the shakes but feeling like crap, mouth tastes like Jesus’ sandals, head feels like I have the cast of River Dance doing rehearsals on my temples and three times today I thought I was going over; Who said the Cambridge Diet was easy? Oh it was Anne wasn’t it lol.

Anyway I got my new pedometer today (any excuse to buy a gadget) and decided to try it out and it has made me realise I really am a lazy swine as I did less then 500 steps today which really is pathetic and that’s only because I was running back and forth to the loo to pee like one of those cute little cupid fountains.

I really need to up my exercise but not sure what to do, was going to get a power plate buy my health trainer says they are only good for toning (can you tone fat?). I did try the local gym but it was that full even in the middle of the night there were people queuing up waiting to use the machines.

My health trainers suggests walking but I really don’t feel comfortable going out walking around here especially as there is nowhere to sit down if my legs play up. I would try going out late at night but around here I would end up getting mugged so maybe I need to look at treadmills but just had a quick Google and even the ones at £50 a week to rent are just below my weight.

Hmmm decisions decision!

I really need a TV in the bathroom

mcdogs — Sun, 22 Aug 2010 10:55:04 +0000

Well its day two of my all new blog and I am already at a loss as to what to write about. Sunday is a really weird day, it is supposed to be the day you have the big Sunday roast and all the trimmings but to be honest I have not done that since mom died six years ago, just don’t see the point when it’s just me but now I know I can’t have it I want it all the more (I guess that old rule applies to women and food).

Today has not been best of days as the side effects of the Metformin tablets I have to take for the diabetes have kicked in, the doctor warned me they might give me a bad stomach but he did not tell me I might up finding a Mars Bar I eat in 1986 floating in the pan!. Sorry I know that’s gross but I have no real food left in my system thanks to the good olde shakes and water so I guess the Metformin is giving me a colonic without having to waste perfectly good coffee.

When I was at the Doctors on Tuesday he was telling me about how the Metformin was going to extend my life, I did not think about it at the time but looking back been told at 36 you need medication to extend you life is some pretty worrying shit. Anyway this has led me on to my bucket list which say far includes doing a parachute jump, running a marathon (blame Teressa for that one), learning to drive, visiting Japan and having at least one night of passion with every one of the ladies in my harem so come on all you sexay people form an orderly queue and help me tick this one off my list

A new beginning

mcdogs — Sat, 21 Aug 2010 16:38:10 +0000

Wow I cannot believe it has been nearly two years since I posted on here, I can’t believe I have spent so long faffing about making excuses to myself and everyone else when I should have been concentrating on important stuff like my health. It is so easy to fall into the trap of convincing yourself that you’re still on a diet when truth be told you are eating more crap then you ever did.

The past two weeks has been a bit of a roller coaster emotionally, I signed up to a new Doctor after not seeing one for six years which meant me having a full medical. The first lot of tests were a bit worrying but then I was told everything was clear. Had some blood tests and after waiting a week was told the Doc needed to see me, my mind goes into over drive and I spend 36 hours getting all worked up thinking the worst.

Anyway to cut a long story short (as I am sure you are bored by now) it turns out I am diabetic which ok is bad, I understand that but compared to some of things I was thinking it was actually quite a relief. Luckily my new surgery is a lot more supportive then my old one and in the space of two days I have all my meds sorted, a diabetic review planned, a new place to be weighed every two weeks and even a health trainer who looks about twelve but certainly knows his stuff.

So all of this has lead me back here, a blog I started to record my journey to health and hopefully happiness. I am feeling more positive now then I have done in a long time so fingers crossed and with the support of the friends I have around me this time I won’t piss about and waste the time feeling sorry for myself.

The good news is even though I have not stuck to the diet that well I have not put any more weight on and am now seven stone lighter then the day I started which everyone tells me is great even though I can’t see it myself (unless you are one of us fatties you probably won’t understand that).

I guess that’s it for now, I shall be updating daily but if I don’t you have permission to give me a good kick up the arse!

OK ………….. it does work!

mcdogs — Thu, 04 Sep 2008 18:37:40 +0000

I must be getting old and senile because I forgot all about updating this place after yesterdays weigh in. I was really dreading it after the crap result time so was really bricking it all morning. Anyway I headed to the hospital at my usual time but instead of the usual five minute wait the place was packed and I was left to stew nervously for nearly an hour. Eventually I got called in, stepped on the scales and found out I had lost just over 13lb so have actually managed to reach my personal target of three stone in three months. I am happy about it but can’t help thinking it should be more lol